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Missing India or what?

I am so lazy after coming back, looks like missing India badly, I don't know why I am not ready to get back to work and do stuff as I usually do. I have so many things to write about, but just don't feel like writing, feels like I need to just give this thing up and retire. May be I am hitting a glass ceiling. I am tired of working for somebody, I need to get started on my own and all kinds of attempts that I am doing right now are kind of backfiring or just going no where. I am not sure why I am not just quitting my job and get going on my own.

When I went to India, I can see it shining brightly atleast in the rich/upper middle/middle class poeple of the society. College grads are having more hope than the days I passed out of college. They are getting jobs with some effort and they are dreaming about better tomorrow. I felt as if I am living on the wrong side of the world. But the truth is that, I am living on the side of the world where India is highly dependent for its service industry economy, so am I placed in a better position?

Don't know, i just have a gut feeling that I need to get started on my own with my own ideas, but its too scary and lots of uncertainities out there. My mind is just blowing off for the last few days, just waiting for a miracle to happen, something like a lottery or some angel comes and give me whole lot of money so that I can get started on my own. I know money is not everything, but its a very important factor, you need a capital for atleast one year to survive and do things. You just cannot do things searching for a month to month cash flow. I am so much confused.